Jazbaat dilon ke

oh god i m on the verge of getting hitched. getting tagged. commiting to someone i don't know much about. i shout at some women at the family would i end up doing the same to her. have i hurt any of my friends who are girls. do i give them a ear in any discussion taking place between us. i do. the cute lady told me. mum has loads of suggestions and corrective measures. but have my people informed her family of willingness to take this to the next level. lemme check. they haven't. ok. very soon they will. then what. then when. then how. uhhhhhhhhhhh. i will tell her not to wear a jazzy desi saree when she meets my granny and few other seniors of the family. oh don't laugh. either you do it or i will do it by my own means. i told my people. but its too late now to message. moreover facebook is the only media. ok i will do it first thing in the morning tomorrow. good night. good morning. 8 am. too early to message. let me return from the gym. i will do it then. ding dong! i m back. ok lemme drop a note to her. niece wants my time. ok baby. phone in hand. mind occupied. niece wants to play. ok baby, chill. lovely i fixed her. what should i write. Hi girl, sorry for messaging you here even before the two families approve of it. I wanted to check with you if you are comfortable to meet the senior members of the family on 27th. No. Not that. let me recompose. Hi Girl, sorry for messaging you here even before the two families approve of the alliance. Hope you are informed of our willingness to take this ahead. I wanted to check with you if you are ok with it. This was the only means to reach you hence chose facebook. Sincere apologies.

Passion grows in you. passion to talk. passion to know. u loose your patience. you want to know what is in the mind of that person. every passing minute, passing hour makes you more impatient. you keep wondering what could she be doing right now. why the hell she is not responding. or does she have facebook on her phone at all. if she does have it then why is she taking so much time to respond. is she in approval or in denial of the alliance. Should i have sent her a message. is it right. what is she thinking of me. has she complained of this to her parents and relatives. have they got aggravated by this action of mine. what if she has and her relatives did not like it and they are calling it off. what if they give the same reason to my parents and relatives. if she was not interested then why the hell did she engage in the whole talk that day. why did she wave when i left. when will she respond. god give her the mind. give her the thought. make her access facebook. please. should i ask her sister about it. no another mistake in excitement. neither my mum nor my sister is giving me an update of the progress. patience is killing.

Chuck it lets go for break. politics, technology and kids in pakisstan. now i was sure that she hasnt liked me messaging her and she is gone and nothing is moving ahead now.

Game Over!!!

No Lets wait... fingers crossed. heart thumping hard. god take care of this. Girl hope you understand what I meant.

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Bharadwaj D. Maskikar

Marriage... lol no its an agreement

Far off relative of ours had found a probable match for me and they put it across to my parents. Father was a retired MSEB officer, mother a home maker, elder brother worked at a reputed Indian giant, younger brother in USA. Had completed MS and was already married. The groom herself was an engineer and worked with a indo german conglomorate. The day this relative of ours shared it with my parents and they shared it with me, my immediate reaction was 'oh this wouldn't go through'. Except me everyone was excited and shared about me with them. As expected it was a denial. Immediately after that call my parents and my sister who was in town for diwali started discussing another probable alliance. They were hell bent on giving it a thought.

As such i was not interested in an alliance which was from amongst the relatives. I wanted something different. By different i meant a person who comes from a place which have not known much about or where i dont belong to or may be profession little more colourful than my own. I wondered if my parents would agree to such a thought. Definetely something has to be new. Travelled domestic and international. Have seen life of a person who survives on a mere earning of 1500 rupees a month and that of a few lakhs a month. Have seen the beauty of nature and science as well. Yet, how would you promise a bright future to someone else's daughter. good question.

I was forced to register myself with some of the matrimony websites. The gruelling questionnaire was stressful. Moreover the profiles I got to see were really not greatly encouraging. The expectations of the brides and their parents were hilarious. An engineer bride wanted a engineer groom. it sounded like Microsoft Excel works only on Windows OS. A doctor seeking doctor. Crap! Life would become so monotonous. What would they talk of; how a code is written, how did the fault in design result into fatal accident, what symptoms would mean a particular disease.

Dear GOD save this mankind.

Marriage as an institution is all about being in love with one another and wanting to do things for one another unconditionally.

I want a partner who will make me smile every morning when i wake up. Make me want to get home to see her. Make me work to make sure her dreams are fulfilled. Do things for each other unconditionally.

I was chatting with a friend on whatsapp and was telling her how it felt. It gave me a thought of coming up with a portal or a site which focuses on real essence of marriage as an institution.